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i have made this blog because i've been feeling like i wanted to post more personal photos on a website for a while. i am planning to make this my photo diary (as cheesy as it may sound), these days everyone feels the need to share their photos, even though others aren't actually that interested in them. this is just for them to be on the internet, which is a weird thought but a mild craving. i am not looking for reactions or views, this is just to share with nobody.

listening to music sometimes feels like a repetitive circle to me. i usually have moods for specific musicians and then listen to them for about a month, maybe two. these are in my extreme repetitive circle for now:

• purity ring
• fink
• the 'singles' playlist on my ipod (contains eliphino, burial & four tet, SBTRKT, the xx and koreless)

there's also musicians that i can always listen to and that have a special place in my heart (dramatic)

• bon iver

music is seasonal for me though. when i start listening to something in winter, that music will always be winter music to me (same with summer/spring/autumn of course). damien rice and foals are winter to me. explosions in the sky is october (not a season but u know wa im saying), and i just realized most of the music i listen to is winter music. no christmas songs though!!

 

i was doubting if i would write in dutch or english. i guess i will write dutch poems every once in a while but i don't know if they'll be on this blog. 

today i went to Gouda to check out the new H&M (Gouda is quite boring but now it has an H&M) and i bought some things. i admit i'm a bit of a ''shopaholic'', which is a word i dislike, but i try to hold myself in because i don't want to be(come) extremely materialistic or all about appearance. i'm sure there is a line between being totally obsessed and perfectionistic with your appearance and just making sure you look a bit nice (not like a super tramp). i guess i just need to find that line. or am i over-exaggerating? sometimes i think about the things i think that i think way too much about them and that i shouldn't do because i'm worrying over nothing but at the same time it seems to be important to me, to find these things out or at least discuss them with myself. in my head.

so anyway, i went to the H&M and didn't expect it to be as big as it is. Gouda has small shops usually because it has the small dutch buildings (google it). Also, the shop that used to be in that place was way smaller so i they just made it bigger. 

maybe i'll make a post about what i bought there later, i'm still not sure if i'll make this blog a ''fashion-outfit-stuff i bought'' blog because who cares what i wear/buy? i'm not sure if it's interesting enough. 

this morning on my bike ride to school, a lady cycled in front of me, then all of a sudden she hit her breaks. of course i didn't respond on time and i clashed into the ladies bike/the lady. she wasn't hurt or anything, and she apologized because she hit her breaks out of nothing, but my leg had been swollen all day, and still is. i can't sit with my legs crossed! help